My last post I ended on such a positive high. After placing 3rd female at Music City Trail Ultra 25k I was stoked. I felt a renewed energy within me.
Well it ended pretty quickly when every run I went for turned into epic fails. One run I went out with a group, went out a few miles, and had to walk all the way back. That walk back turned into me crying, and going home again to cry to my husband that I was probably injured and out AGAIN. But I hoped for the best still.
I went for a massage thinking I was just dealing with some super tight muscles. I took a week off running and had a second massage. I attempted another run as suggested after my week off and second massage. Within minutes it turned into a limping walk. And it was then I knew it for sure.
I was injured.
Having tried to run on it at all made it worse, I woke up numerous times that night with an achy leg. Not much sleep happened. I made an appointment to go to my Physical Therapist the next day.
At my PT appointment I received the news I had hoped it wasn't...but deep down knew it was after that last run...
I had torn my hamstring muscle.
I know the moment it happened now. Although at the time it happened I wasn't aware what it was.
In the last few minutes of the race I got a weird tingling sensation down my leg and it made my leg feel like it was going to give out. I thought my legs were just getting tired. I also had gotten dizzy toward the end of the race due to not hydrating as well as I thought I did so my focus was toward that. I thought maybe that had something to do with it. But there wasn't time much to think about it all because moments after I was crossing the finish line.
The first few runs I attempted the week after the race everything was pretty sore so I couldn't pinpoint exactly what was wrong. I thought maybe it was IT Band tendonitis at first because I felt tightness into my knee. But toward the ends of my runs I kept feeling as if my leg would give out or something. Finally after that last attempted run I went to foam roll my legs as I had been doing and I hit the spot as soon as I set the foam roller on my leg. I couldn't put ANY weight on my hamstring without INTENSE pinching pain. After reading up more on that area of leg and possible injuries I figured out what I was sure it was and PT confirmed it. I tore my bicep femoris muscle, aka lateral hamstring. Because it connects into your knee I was also dealing with inflammation into my knee which is why I also had felt knee pain during my runs.
More on Hamstrings:
The hamstring muscle group is located on the posterior aspect or the back of the upper leg. Three muscles compose the hamstring muscle group: semitendinosis, semimembranosus and biceps femoris. Semitendinosis and semimembranosus are located on the medial or inside aspect of the back of the thigh, while biceps femories -- a muscle that possesses two heads, a short head and a long head -- is located on the lateral or outside aspect of the back of the thigh. The tendon of the biceps femoris muscle attaches to the head of the fibula -- the smaller of the two long bones in the lower leg. (Credit: www.livestrong.com)
Symptoms of a Hamstring Tendon Strain
A grade 1 strain of the hamstring may be felt as a slight pull or ache in the back of the thigh. The exact injury may not be remembered or recognized, and onset of the pain may be gradual. There may be minimal swelling and a nonspecific pain when the knee is extended. A limp may or may not be present, but the pain is usually worsened with aggressive activity like running or walking up or down stairs.
Grade 2 strains often occur with an acute event, and an immediate sharp pain is felt in the back of the thigh or higher up toward the buttock. Walking may be difficult because extending the knee stretches the injured muscle, and a limp is often present. Swelling and tenderness can be appreciated at the area of injury.
Symptoms of a grade 3 strain are a progression of a grade 2 strain with symptoms of pain and swelling being more pronounced. Many times in athletic injuries, the muscle can be so aggressively stretched that it tears with a pop so loud that it can be heard by other players on the field. If there is a significant tear, a divot can sometimes be felt in the belly of the muscle at the site of injury. (Credit: emedicinehealth.com)
Right now we think mine is a mild tear, probably a grade 2 I would guess. PT said two weeks rest minimum. I go back for my second appointment tomorrow afternoon and hopefully that will tell us more.
Being injured is no fun.
Being injured and having to miss a race is double no fun.
Being injured and missing TWO races is triple no fun.
Saturday I had to sit out on the race I had been on a waitlist and got in and had really been looking forward to,
River Gorge 10.2 in Chattanooga, TN.
The River Gorge race runs though part of the StumpJump 50k course that I will be doing for the second time this October. StumpJump was my first 50k in 2013. I really wanted a chance to see the course again and go through the famous "Rock Garden" area to get a feel for it again.
But I could pout all I wanted and it wasn't changing the fact that I couldn't race. I had to move on with my sadness and make the best of the situation. Because we already had a hotel we decided to make the trip to Chattanooga and use Saturday as a family day(more on that in my next post).
The second race I will have to miss will be the Oak Barrel 1/2 Marathon this coming Saturday in Lynchburg, TN.
I have a bunch of friends going and I had done one of the preview runs and it was beautiful course. And I really wanted to conquer a hill that has its own name and Facebook page, "Whiskey Hill".
This week I had lots of moments I wanted to just let myself feel down in the dumps, after all I have an injury just 3 months after I had recovered from my last one. I deserved to be sad right? But I can't change the situation and I realized its just a waste of my days sitting moping around. So I keep surrounding myself with positiveness and moving forward. I enjoyed spring break with the kids and really took the time to relax and do some special projects with them(more on that in my next post).
I think its ok to feel a moment of sadness, because YES there is disappointment in a situation like this. So I felt the moment, let it out, binged on icecream, and then moved on. Ok so the eating binge lasted over a week. But once again I am moving on. Time to eat healthy again especially since I am not burning calories running.
I took a spin class yesterday as suggested by my PT and during a song came on about being Thankful. I sat back and realized I have a lot to be thankful for despite my situation. Even the last race I just finished was amazing in itself. The improvements I was able to make in my running over the past few years. The amazing supportive awesome(I could go on and on)friends I have made through running. My family who believes in me. My kids who support me and cheer me on. So many people who have told me despite what happened they have been encouraged by the things I post on my blog and Facebook. Some moments even this blog I wondered if anyone was even reading it. Was it worth the time and effort? I wondered if it was good enough compared to what else was out there.
And then I realized if I had encouraged even ONE person it was all worth it.
I want people to believe in themselves, to look back and say be able to say to themselves, "Because of my hard work, I did this". I want people to wake up reaching for a goal or dream and make a step to pursue that. It doesn't even have to be running. I just want you to be proud of YOU and know you can do amazing things if you set your mind to it and don't give up. Don't ever think its too late or its too hard. You can get there. You can do it.